A Conversation With Myself About Conversations With God

Hi. The following is an extract from my personal journal that I later thought might be intriguing for others to consider for themselves.    Should this likely charged topic compel you to respond, please do so with ideas that I and others could consider to help us understand this life we are in.  In no way do I claim that I’m “right” about anything below and I do NOT think that you or anyone else should think according to what I’ve written, it’s just where I’m at right now.  Know that I love you and that I know you love me too.  Thanks – Chris.

Some main points which I took away from the 1st of the 3 books entitled, Conversations with God, are the following:

  1. God created humans so that She could experience herself, because if she was all that existed, she could not – she needed something outside of herself to exist so she could essentially compare her own experience to something else and thus understand her own experience, and thus understand herself
  2. Love was all there was at first, but similar to the point above, when love was all there was, God could not really understand love, nor Her own experience, and thus nor herself.  As such, fear was made possible…the opposite of love.  From love and fear all other emotions are derived.


If these are somewhat accurate depictions of what I think I heard in the book, then isn’t it true that humans were created on this earth with the need for us to experience fear, and thus pain?  Is it true that God needs us to feel fear and pain in order accomplish the two points made above? And if that is true, would it also be plausible that we then CANNOT expect to avoid or easily dismiss fear and pain?  That they are purposefully difficult (for most of us) to deal with because in the dealing with fear and pain we learn the most about ourselves and thus God understands more about Herself? This might sound dismal at first, but it may also be freeing.


Because I’M SUPPOSED TO FEEL FEAR AND PAIN, (1) I can stop beating myself up for experiencing it (instead of thinking that I’m supposed to be able to avoid it or immediately manage it down, etc.); (2) accept the fact that I and others are going to do things that result in fear and pain – there is no other option – it is necessary and essentially a directive from God; (3) more so, that it is actually ESSENTIAL for I and others to do things that somehow result in me and others feelings of fear and pain; that it is perhaps God’s need of us so that She can experience herself, and understand herself and love?




Each of us are pieces of God with divine souls, physical bodies, and an experience processor called the mind.  The divinity within each of us, our soul, is simply Love.  But, we forget that we are drops of God and divinely Love, and so we go about a life that can help us remember, and understand that we are points of God and at our soul center, Love.  We thus are here to experience ourselves, and part of that is to necessarily experience the opposite of Love – fear – b/c if Love is all we experienced, we would not be able to really know it.  Therefore, we must experience fear, and pain. There is no choice.  So for me, I need NOT judge myself for feeling fear or pain – which is usually what I’m down on myself for.  Feeling down about something that’s happened is one thing (e.g., someone getting mad at me), but me also getting sad about me getting sad that someone was mad at me is not something I think is worth ANYTHING because I MUST get sad at stuff – it is necessary for me to remember who I am.  My JOB is to use those feelings!  Might I then get ‘secondarily sad’ when I simply stay sad from the first event and not use it to help me remember who I really am? Yes; not might…I now do.  So when I now recognize this going forward, I can remind myself that (1) I’m SUPPOSED to have these initial sad (etc) feelings; (2) that there is something to learn from here to help me remember who I am; and (3) I have the choice to dig into it and do the learning, or not – but that not doing it delays me remembering who I really am, and/or results in learning less about who I really am.  ON THE OTHER HAND…one might say that the ‘secondary sadness’ too is an experience that can help me remember who I really am, and help God understand who She is…and this seems reasonable, for I would not be writing this piece right now had I not realized that I was experiencing this ‘secondary sadness.’ Writing this piece is hopefully the completion of the lesson/leaning I need from it though because I am learning from it, AND I think that I can more and more quickly go about my quest to remember who I am with this purported realization.




So perhaps God put things like saber tooth tigers on the earth to help create fear in humans so that She could then experience the opposite of love.  AND perhaps God put fear of things into us to keep us alive because if we didn’t fear saber tooth tigers we would get killed by them which would then eliminate God’s opportunity to experience Herself (b/c we wouldn’t be around for Her to experience Herself through us b/c She couldn’t then experience Herself outside of Herself without us around).  Fear keeps us alive so that we are alive for God to experience Herself by experiencing things outside of Herself.


Then the question is, without saber tooth tigers around, what is meant by “alive”?  What is the purpose of fear now? What kind of “alive” does it help us stay now?  What are the saber tooth tigers now? Or are we simply old models that still retain a relatively useless reptilian brain?


If all we experienced were statistics in our heads – and essentially no emotions, leading to everyone thinking very similar things, would we all die, b/c we would all have mostly the same conclusions about things which would make the entire race susceptible to the same elements that could wipe us out? Does this suggest that we MUST continue to have a limbic system in order to create vast variances between peoples so that the total race survives? Additionally, if we removed the limbic system and thus reduced the inputs into our decision making, and if there were far fewer variances in decisions made thus creating a much smaller range of life experiences, would that be unacceptable for God because She then would not be able to experience Herself nearly as much?  So in order for Her to experience herself as much as She wants to, do we need vast variances in decisions and thus does She need a factor that creates said variances which is the limbic system? And then again translated to the idea that we are all rays of God, is all this needed for us as individuals to experience ourselves fully, and remember who we really are?  MUST we too have the limbic system in order to create large variances in decisions and thus life experiences?

One Law,